Spirit Release Chronicles: Week 7

I aired my frustrations this week. Everyone is so generous with their listening and encouragement. I felt like I was getting hammered this week by negativity, by all the ways the other side knows how to mess with me. I was feeling alone, not good enough, weak, less than everyone. I didn’t ask for help because I was afraid to bother folks. I assumed nobody else was having a hard time. WOW, shut up. I outed it in class just to be transparent. I’m grateful for all the advice. 

There was an entity that showed its face–like an alien, snake-like face with citrine eyes and light blue skin–hovering and getting in my view. I couldn’t connect to the guides at first without seeing its face, too. I imagined myself crouching and filling with heart light and letting it explode out all around me and brighten my protective bubble. I asked the guides to remove it from my field, and they did. Thank you. 

 I felt much better after meditation. Thank you, Andy! I only felt it in my periphery after we finished. 

I must remember to relax–to push out negative thoughts. I may get pushed to the edge. Thanks, Dave! 

I had two practice clearings today. They both went well. The guide that usually comes close sometimes overlaps with me, and I move behind her. This time she was outside me and on guard. She was behind my back and using sound waves to clear around me. I can’t hear the sound, just see it moving in the air. 

I asked the guides for a clear channel. They kept saying ‘don’t try, just receive.’ I had to keep relaxing into it. There is a settling into the breathing that I need to practice. It’s like going into the trance state causes me anxiety for the first couple of minutes. I have to let go and allow the vibration to take me. 

I really liked having two clearings back to back. Terese and I stopped and fully came back before we entered the second clearing. We learned that it’s not necessary. If the medium and facilitator are clear, we can move right into the next recipient.